hanz

Missing you

2011-10-02T12:22:00.002+08:00

i dreamt of you nerd

we were all having holiday.
Dad,Mum,Jie jie, Rick, Hanson, Taj, Stella, Djafar and You...

You were wearing a two tone shirt... white tone to yellow/gold. Very Handsome, Still the nurdin i know.
You have a stern face and didn't recall any of us.

But we are in a fancy hotel...
We are all gathered in a big fancy hotel...

even if the dream wasn't perfect
i woke up, tears in my eyes
heart felt so nice to see you once again...

alot things had happen in the family since u left,
sometimes i do wonder if your still alive would it not happen to this way.
i wish i still can talk to you, ask u how to make my job now any better coz i know u can manage it so much better than me...
i wished you could teach me how to dress as classy as u
i wished you could teach me in so many other things in life and family

i wished you still here...
i wished we can actually have a family holiday with you around..
i miss you bro!

i Really do

fianlly i post out

2011-09-01T21:15:00.001+08:00

even when we quarrel.

after some time i still wanna hear from you.
but even we cant. i will find a way to output it...

i miss you baby.

just a dream ?

2010-12-04T04:44:00.002+08:00

dont be my dream ?

i wan you more than a dream...

i love you so much.. to even let u go ,,,

dont let my dream to a matter of fact

i love you that much,... i wan you to my reality...

give me the strength

2010-12-04T04:25:00.002+08:00

i been here in jkt for 4 years. i had so much memories...

with pple people who is here and who is not...
pple who had i lost and who are still here...
but i after i lost so much... even just two i had no one to talk to anymore...
even for the people who are there for me no offenses..

i miss the people who are gone especially my eldest brother who is in heaven

i am not tearing coz i know he is in the better place... but some how i miss how he used to tell us how much he worked hard just for us to enjoy as much as much. maybe i didnt understand that as much as taj but i know it much as much as taj hurt right beneath his heart...

no tears cant bring back the dead but i know i would bring back all the smile that i can to make my family and love ones to be happy>

im in jkt lonely and sad and im moving on to my chapter of life that maybe no one would understand why i do it.
i do it for my faily and the peopl who had loved me.
it might sound selfish for any girlfriend that that i have now

but i wish over matter of year i been tryong so hard to move on to my parents would be.
i wanna move on.. to be a better me.. future hold so much promises..
i wish my parthner would hold with me and go on life as it goes for the BETTER or WORST coz i really NEED that support. and coz i love u that much to tell u for better or worst IF its better i would let u go.. i am not a selfish person. and maybe one day i would realise that being a selfish person not gonna do u good

someone or something prove me wrong> i do consider every aspect of LIFE.

but aint so easy.

even if i dont believe in god

god please bless me

i love u row, taj, my mum and whoever once treated me better...

give me the strength i need to get tru...

before/after

2010-11-11T12:45:00.000+08:00

we watched disney films, not disney channel.

it was sabrina the teenage witch, not wizards of waverly place.

we liked the nightmare before christmas before all this emo shit started.

it was interview with the vampire and buffy the vampire slayer before twilight.

a bad day

2010-10-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

all we do is complain...

Singaporean complaining about the haze that Indonesia made
Indonesia complains about having enough money

friends complains about their life.. how hard it is etc etc
i complain about why cant we live like what we used to be

everyone complains

ARGH shuddup and live with it.
my shoulders are getting heavy yet i still do complain lesser than you all.

bullshit.

There'll Always be a Plus in a Minus

2010-10-06T10:40:00.001+08:00

When things look grim, remember: there will always be a plus in every minus.
Every day, we need to focus on the positive and push the negative backwards – catch the butterflies, not the bombs.
This way we’ll get closer to our hopes and dreams, closer to happiness!

...

2010-09-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

where do i go ?
who do i need to speak to ?

the light at the end of tunnel is getting darker
its getting blurry
its getting watery

am i gonna lost once again

without you here by my side..

Laugh Out Loud and Smile

2010-09-01T09:13:00.016+08:00

i wish to meet him one day at any bus stop

emo panda

KFC and MACdonals are long time friends

hmmm friends =x

no chair....

bow down!

sleeping rabbits

help the human

new style for bored babyku!

how i wish i was high in demand!

the future for apple users!

i missed you

2010-08-09T13:48:00.002+08:00

i woke up from a dream....

a very nice dream and sad one since a very long time..

i dream of my grandfather.
he was in hospital,
i was there...
he was having a high fever
b4 i left he said he wanted to shit
and i supported him to his bed,
i hold him and felt he was warm

while supporting him to the bed he stroke my back and say i was good for helping him
he smiled and i smiled

a call woke me up...

i missed you grandpa...

press fast forward

2010-08-09T02:51:00.003+08:00

i cant sleep again..

dreamy aint working

im home alone...

i on my computer dunno what to do
i online dunno who to chat with

taj is not in jkt
baby aint in singapore
chelsea lost 3-1 LOL

i wanna go fast forward till tmr....
fix my hole in my teeth
cut my hair
go pick up taj...

Life,Friends,Love,Choices,Time

2010-07-18T12:30:00.012+08:00

the things we go through every year.
seem like the last time i left a place was 4 years back

but yet from that time all 5 subjects are still having changes.

my life has changed from happiness to sadness and back to square one searching for another emotion to lean on

my friends added a new addition of care and concern, his name is eric :)
eric had been my dream of being simple
melvin had been my directions of voice
mickey had been my joy which i didnt dare to explore
joseph had been my cruelty which i get smacked with
zn had been my partner of simple fun

yes they are enough to build my road up ahead

my love been foolish to love and love with no complain yet by time
when im single i found a person
i hurt-ed when I'm a teen.
to be accept and have another chance.
To be love and not being played by love
once again.
rowena let our rekindled love stay fiery fired strong.

my choice of becoming sober
sober and less active who i would say when i'm 9
i would not drink
i would no have a pill problem
i would not smoke
i will find my own way of fun.

time will tell all,
many that i knew i know some i will not meet again some return with stories of joy and some return with tales of sorrow

to those whom im writing here,
whatever story you have im always be here to
accept it
embrace it
support it
solve it
love it

because you all made me felt like im real in this world.

Pray

2010-07-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

for my grandmother recover soon.

for my family to be well.

for strength.

for power.

for friends to be doing well.

for better day next day.

for the never ending love i had given.

fruitful month

2010-06-28T10:45:00.005+08:00

the month of June 2010
is a very fruitful month for me since so many months in this year.

i got to spend quality time with my beloved baby girl for 3 long weeks in Singapore.
i got to spend my 1st ever family holiday with everyone in Bali for 5days.

i had so much fun having fun in sg as this time i dint get much drunk, im sober most of the time.
its a very good healthy start.
im happy to bring my baby to my long lost memories to a techno event with most of my buddies who used to enjoyed it with me. A part of my old self with my baby!
i enjoyed playing snooker more, catching more movies, hanging out more, playing more bowling
with my very very good friends and esp. my babyku.

its was hard to leave my baby girl when i left sg and wasn't very thrilled abt bali with so many people. was expecting the worst but it turn out to be a blast.

i hadn't felt the family togetherness since i was a kid.
the last time i went to bali i was in my arms of my sister.
and now i am playing with my sister's kid!

time really flies so fast!

treasure what we really do have now
coz all we need is just the time we had spent and
the memories we have in our unlimited space of brain

i love the basri family
i love my friends
i love you baby girl.

xoxo!

Grown up

2010-05-25T12:25:00.002+08:00

hmmm come to think of it

i was once a boy who always wanted to the cool or popular one
yet i only hang out with people i feel comfortable with.
i was once a boy who wanted simple love
yet i only get dumped over and over.
i was once a boy who dream of staying in Singapore
yet i went back to Jakarta finish my studies.
i was once a boy who wanted so much things
yet i have restricted from all my needs.

to be the me
i really am now.

im not complaining
im actually feeling good of what i have become currently

i may not have tons of friends
but i do have friends who really care for me as a brother.
i may not stay in Singapore
but i am happy i didnt, coz if i did i may not be what i feel towards the world now.
i may not have my dreams now
but i have my family in exchange.
i may not have a simple love
but i do have you.

for all these facts i have in life

i know i will have a better future in life to compare whats my wish and dreams.
the love and support i have is well enough to go on with this difficult life.

no title

2010-05-17T12:40:00.001+08:00

im tired of facing this world alone

would your hold my hands
and
face this world with me ?

(R)ealization

2010-05-16T02:16:00.002+08:00

today i feel much diff..

maybe i had change much
maybe i been alone too long
maybe i had lost someone dearly recently
maybe i missing her too much lately

maybe this world is mad
maybe humans are just getting more and more irritating
maybe people are more selfish these days

whatever it is.
it made me realize why i isolated myself from this world.

i don't need permission to do what i like
i don't need sympathy to feel better
i don't need peoples' thoughts to judge who i am
i don't need fake feelings to care for you

coz i know i am not as good as other people are.
and when someone knows that. they have all the right things in mind to change themselves.

some people cant be isolated but i am strong enough to move on without fake friends and fake concerns. so even if there is no one reading this. i feel good telling and reflecting myself.
dont look back as i know i will be stronger than before

sunhine after the rain

2010-04-12T14:47:00.001+08:00

yep tears

then a laugh.

life's good with your around me.

2010-04-11T13:23:00.001+08:00

I am nothing special of this I am sure.

I am just a common man with common thoughts.

Everyone told me that love hurts, but that isn't true.
As
Loneliness hurts.
Rejection hurts.
Losing someone hurts.
Envy hurts.

but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten.

But I've been loving with all my heart and soul, and to me, that has always been enough.

<3

PS

2010-04-11T00:44:00.002+08:00

i seriously dunno how to start this entry.

recently i had lost a dear brother of mine whose only 39.
his always taking care of his health, his wife and kids.
he love them so dearly.
working so hard for my dad.
yet god still took him away so early in his life....

i had so much great time with him although we are 14 years gap difference.
i realize we always want a 2nd chance in everything we did wrong in life yet in a right position we always want 2nd chance to make in even better than we had in the 1st time.

its been very hard for everyone in the family to accept his not here anymore.
for me and my family, we wish for this 2nd chance we would be able to see him again, to treat him differently, to feel how he felt and to enjoy more enjoyable times with him.

PS: bro i missed you so much. love you always.

i, myself had alot of 2nd chances in life.
i had chance to study uni again in jkt after i didn't got a student pass in Singapore.
maybe its not the 2nd chance i wanted but its a 2nd chance to pro long my studies.
7 years back i had let a girl walk out my life before.
but god let me had a 2nd chance to meet her and fall for her once again.
this time i would treasure everything that she is going to give me and love her and accept for who she is.

maybe since i realize that sometimes not everything has a 2nd chance,
i would see this world much clearer of my mistakes and really treasure all the 2nd
chances that is given to me.

She was always being mistreated.
She was always misunderstood.
She was always walking around with a smile that's not i used to see truly.
She was always being the good partner who didn't get what she wanted.

For all that she is being,
i will protect her from harm ways
and love her with all my heart.

coz i know i wouldn't let my 2nd chance to go to waste again.

PS:i love you rowena, put that smile on your face always coz i will always be there for you.

7-11 march

2010-03-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

2 love ones came.

my god brother
my girlfriend

i miss having time with them when their around me

i miss his conversations & laughs
i miss her hugs & kisses

i miss her waiting for me to wake up even she's hungry for lunch.
i miss them playing play-station with me and snatching my computer.

im all alone at home with my computer and tv again.
even thought i am so tired, i dont think i can sleep without them

zzzzz

without you something is missing ; my smile

2010-02-26T11:51:00.010+08:00

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you,
not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you.
It makes me forget the distance and capture you.

Once a upon a time...

2010-02-23T19:15:00.007+08:00

Recalling the days i meet her....

she was coming 13 and i was coming 18.
we meet online in #broadrick (mIRC)
i still remembered her nick
it was d[0]rtz
i was amazed that she stayed the same condominium
as i stayed before but didn't even notice each other.

at that time i told her to meet me up in real person.
we meet at parkway pool junction
accompany with our own best friends.

she was with nixia
i was with zhengnan.
for that time,
she was incredibly shy as when i wanted to even see her face;
she was hiding behind her friend.

when actually i got to see her face,
it was the face i would never forget.
her smile was so pure.

i was young,playful and wasn't responsible
at that time i asked her to be my girlfriend nevertheless
i kissed her at her block
but through time we were too young to realize this is just something that wouldn't work out.

to think back,
it was a dream come true because waterside is such a memorable place for me
i spend half of my years in Singapore growing up there.

Years passed... we still meet up randomly for smoke and just chats up
by time, i went back to Jakarta to continue my studies
and she went to Australia for high school

we only chat via msn
somehow deep down inside me i still get nervous when i want to meet up with her in Singapore.
this is how it all started.

this is when the fading fire was rekindled once again

after 6 years plus
"this is the time to get to know her better"
we both had grown so much and yes this time
we gonna make it right.

we have a common enemy now
that is distance
even we cant spend time just to see each other like normal couples
we did tried to be
as we chat online mostly every day and night

as time passes,
looking through all the photos
we spent together far away or side by side

the distance was killing us
but we stayed strong towards our own heart
i knew it would be a very hard journey for both us
but i still picked up my courage
to ask her to be my girlfriend
because i didnt want to miss this once in a life time chance.

i asked her on 28th December 2009
she say yes on 30th December 2009
i was so shock that it was a yes even though there are so many obstacle
to be overcome to the near future...

She was the one,
she was the one who brought my life back
my smile back.
She might not be perfect but in other people eyes,
but i still remembered her 1st smile
the pure innocent smile
that i would recover it back for her....

god is always giving us challenges
to overcome
but between our love.
Me and her gonna hold hands and overcome it together,
coz i do promise this to her...

I love you
I will protect you

Let this kiss

seal this deal

an honest heart

2010-02-22T12:39:00.001+08:00

a song

2010-01-15T05:28:00.002+08:00

I don't know how or why or when
I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel distant again

And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

eminem - Beautiful

The Sunny January.

2010-01-06T23:35:00.002+08:00

there was a time
when
i was all alone
waiting for someone
to call my own.

my every wish
and dream
somehow become
reality.

when you,
baby girl brought the
sunshine to complete
my life.

now i using this key
to lock you up
in my heart and
never let you go.

after such a long time....

2010-01-02T04:09:00.002+08:00

she found back my smile

that i lost

2009-12-30T19:39:00.002+08:00

2mins ago was the shock and the happiness i nv felt for a long time

=)

The Rainy December

2009-12-29T11:42:00.004+08:00

started out with a great Singapore trip
yet
didn't planned out not to stay until Christmas
so
went back in a rush...

went back to makassar
came with alot of thoughts about the family
that
i gonna stay in next time...
it will be crowded
it will be stressful
it will be work and work and more work

came back to jakarta
somehow loving the peace and silent
yet
missing the family
missing the girl
missing the friends

sigh
thats life i guess ?

its gonna be 2010
wishes ?
hopes ?
dreams ?

same old same old
let me just pray for the best
to u,
to me,
to everyone i treasure
in life.

Smile to get through any day that would be hard

(: (:

Sometimes you have to put walls around you;
not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you.

In darkness, i found peace.

2009-11-30T10:34:00.000+08:00

I ain't perfect, but I promise I won't do you wrong.

behind my eyes

2009-11-17T12:30:00.003+08:00

Deep in the bosom of the gentle night
Is when I search for the light

I struggle, fight dark forces
In the clear moon light

Imagine there's a girlfriend, imagine there's a job
Imagine there's an answer, imagine there's a God
Imagine I'm a Devil, imagine I'm a Saint

Imagine what it feels like, imagine how it sounds
Imagine life is perfect and everything works out
Imagine there's miracle,imagine there's curse

No tears are falling from my eyes
I'm keeping all the pain inside
Now don't you wanna live with me?

(:

2009-10-16T04:44:00.001+08:00

It wasn’t the smile he used to see.
Painted in pink, sweet as candy,
From north to south,
There hardly was a frown.
The broken smile, easily burnt,
Like paper, to ash. Just like,
Never ending false hopes
Weaving through the mind

im back.

2009-10-14T15:49:00.002+08:00

u told me to open up
i tried yet i dun get openness from others

u told me to make friends
i tried yet they open they mouth unnecessarily

u told me u believed my trust
i tried yet you betrayed our trust

u told me about yr problems
i understand yet you don't appreciate me

u told me i wasn't always giving the love i should give u
i tried yet i don't get something in return

i crawl back to hole where everything i did for u
wasn't enough for u
whatever happen to us

Something is wrong.
Really wrong

i shut myself back to the hole i used to be coz i realise maybe whatever i did wasnt the right way.
im back to the same hole that i used to call home.

nothing much change here yet i
feel home,
feel safe,
feel to be myself.

no more pain,
no more asking,
no more doing,
no more directions,
no more anything.

welcome home hanz!

In the promise of another tomorrow

2009-10-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care?
Will you be there?
In my trials
And my tribulations
Through our doubts
And frustrations
In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions
In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of another tomorrow
I'll never let you part
For you're always in my heart.

Drools v1

2009-10-02T17:19:00.019+08:00

2009-10-01T04:26:00.003+08:00

lets start to think more to ourselves

stop arguing on whose wrong whose right

everyone have their own sad story to say

so dun always think ur the worst

coz there people that worst than me and u

yet we dun know their sad story and

we just keep nagging about our sad life

why issit important to care what people write in their blog .

its just an out source for themselves.

this entry aint for anyone to read

so people who feel they did wrong

dun complain nor comment

its not worth ur time commenting to something u dun even understand

Cheers.

stay happy people!

?

2009-09-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

every movies i watch alone.

seems to be im alone in the world looking down of other peopls life in the end of the movies.

bad times makes me wanna be in
my
own freaking
bubble

looking @
happy
old
couples

made my one day happier.

perfect?

2009-09-28T03:53:00.004+08:00

im not perfect to anyone

but i try my best to make your life's perfect

i just wanna your life to be perfect.

i dun wan any thanks or anything.

i just wanna be me when i do it..

i apologize if i aren't the one to make yr life perfect.

Cheers

something really went wrong

2009-09-27T14:42:00.002+08:00

i have been having bad dreams
i cant sleep early
i cant sleep more

i keep dreaming about you
i keep worrying about you

am i getting insane
or
am i losing my way

is this the way it meant to be ?
was it something i did wrong ?
is there answer ?
or this is just happening coz i miss you
being close to my heart

im speechless
im here
im ........................

2008-01-10T19:48:00.000+08:00

me and my girl @ east coast park

me and melvin @ sentosa

The guys @ home

Marco Lina Vonzz & melvin

sg pics taken by my phone. 2007

2008-01-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

busy busy~~

2008-01-08T13:44:00.000+08:00

been very busy life these few days after i came back from sg trip.

once i reach jkt. my sis in law and the family was also here .. with my parents and family.

the house was so packed that some of us need to go hotel and stay for one night.

after new year eve my parents went back to makssar.

a few days later i was going to Pekalongan with my gf to attend her big sister wedding.

its a small town and my 1st trip. it was a good relaxing trip. there alot of their hometown food that i enjoy. was there by train 4 hours trip.

came back yesterday and today my parents are coming to jkt again .

hectic life man .. keep coming.

will be enrolling for new semester tmr.

photos will be updated soon when i got the time.

Cheers

Bandung Trip 23-25Nov 2007

2007-11-26T12:56:00.000+08:00

road to bandung

2 cuties

hehe...

Kopaka place where my gf and her sisters try wedding and bridesmate dress

This is nice...

Mini Burger and extra mini burger.

Kartika sari Bakery

Cakes and some snack i bought back

The things i bought from Bandung. i'm the biggest shopper of all.!

Damage Cost
Hotel One Night : RP250,000 (include 2 set of breakfast)
Food & drinks : around RP250,000(4 person)

Clothes : RP600,000(Myself)

Toiletress & Junk food : RP60,000

Cakes to bring back : RP100,000

Total damage (around) : RP1,060,000

Not bad afterall !!

About Myself ?

2007-11-26T02:50:00.000+08:00

Temperament:
Flexible
Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests:
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement:
Thoughtful
You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

Passion:
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

Updates of the life in indonesia.

2007-11-15T19:47:00.001+08:00

This is how we drink beer. no more glass? just get the jar and drink it!

New Head Unit Fixed in my Car ! Finally !

the fav hobby here... Massage !

Kids nowadays are PC addicted!

Future ?

Makassar - arcobatic china show

@ makassar with the lil people. Derron & Lil black cat. haha

Halloween Party 27oct2008

2007-10-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

Cute Japanese Chick anyone?

Scary Movie Part 9 Weed Is Good

Sickening

Ready to fight Us ?

Weed 4 Life

Fight Scene with Elvis

Elvis 21th Century

The Curse Of the Green Hair

Stop illegal Prositution

Green Avenagers

how i meet my friends.

2007-09-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

PS : i'm sorry my friends to show ur true self in my blog
Melvin,sam,Zhengnan,valentino,Yiting,John
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what can i say about him, his my hero when i need him for console. his strong with what he wants i respect him for that. trying hard to be what he wan to be. Melvin Ling, My only god brother i had! we knew through mIRC it was way long time... we get closer due to who ? u know it i know it. and even she turn into what we would think it would happen. we still thank her for my whole friendship. Melvin can do photograhpy... but cant play pool for nuts. his also another bad drinker! he wants me to support him when he gets married if his friends wan him to drink. yeah alright i will help u .. but u must go tru me 1st okay? =)

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Samuel sim - the famous COOL guy in my buddy list. we used to attend the same chinese class and DnT class. his the famous outkast in school. he dun speak much in school. champion in having xiao mei mei around him. he used to dance techno with me every week from thursday till sat. @ bomb boatquay. his a great dancer but dunno y due to some reason he stopped dancing and to get better. i still think he can do it. his a bad drinker. NYE 2005 his drunk, let me think when his not drunk .. LOL.. cheers man i am still ur friend.

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John aka izal. My brother's best brother. cant say much about him. He cant dance for nuts. He is mater of drinking from day till night. we started hang out as we share a very common interest getting DRUNK.! for my friendship with him i had very seen him drunk. until 30/12/2005 when we went momo, he was force to drink with my friends until he went home dead drunk and i was very happy to capture this moment.

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Yi ting aka ET. lol tats what i call her... we meet when u were still hanxiong "gan mei mei" @ boatquay. i remember i was very quiet at times and she was very willing to try to talk to me. Using her fav weapon to entertainment.. her cold jokes will freeze u ! after some times i found out she havent play much during her childhood days as she comes my house and play with my nephews stuff. -.-;

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Valentino. The bully of my secondary school, he came by during sec2 asking me for my wallet as his "boss" wallet was missing. wow what a 1st impression i had for him. then meet him again @ chinablack when he was serving army. due to alcohol and alot of crap we turn into good friends.He had changed much much better... He hates techno and ah bengs now when he used to be one.. haha u would never wan him to into a mood he become very crazy and lame with his jokes.! stay away his abit gila.

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Zhengnan.... very long time friend. we used to share aot of love problems during secondary school days. i meet him 1st @ school stage. Coz we both got caught for long hair on the 1st day of sec3. due time we turn into very good friends and neighbours as i moved to simei. we share alot of same interest, pool,snooker,clubbing although he dun drink... this is what u dun want to be with him dancing techno with his secret identity his actually Spiderman!

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Bernard, the funnies thing is when i got to know him.. during sec2.. he came to my class asking if i'm who i am. and asked me to borrow him porn. LOL. what a start of a wonderful friendship! We used to have a crash on the same girl. We shared alot of love problems, laughters and tears together. i was there for him and he was there for me. His a very kind easy going guys who has no troubles with anyone else. his a gentle giant.

his 1st visit to zouk was bad ... he drunk long island tea with me and we went in zouk 11pm came out 12.15am and his was so drunk. DEAD DRUNK. within 1 hours and 15mins. Me and my fren and to drag him out of the club...

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Sg Pics 21aug - 9sept 2007 & Indo Pics 13aug - 20aug 2007

2007-09-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

Jeff,Taji,Afuk,Me,Ciko @ Mazze

Me,Taji,Ciko,Allen,Jeff @ Airport

Von,Me,Taj,allen,Ciko,Didi,Afuk @ iPool

Vonzz,Hanz.Jeff,Ciko @ iPool

Vonz,Hanz,Taji,Ciko,allen,Jeff,Afuk @ Yeos

Yan,allen,ciko,hanz,taji,afuk @ Batavia Hotel

Modena Living Room

Zn @ kbox

bernard @ kbox

some bamboo rice...

Clark Quay

the place i used to run my 2.4

Zn and me

2.50 char siew rice + egg

Big BREAKFAST

me zn melvin @ kbox

Eye Operation LASIK

2007-09-17T18:11:00.000+08:00

i went back singapore on 21 aug.

Got my eye check wether i can do the operation on 22th morning 8am. i went with my bro, melvin as he needed to fix his camera.
1st day they diluted my eyes so .. i cant read near text or see clearly near objects, it was blur and i am afraid of the freaking bright sun. it was freaking bright after the eye drop was in my eyes for that day. i pratically just want to stay in the mall as it was so FREAKING bright. it kinda sound like when u have "E" the next day .. same symthoms. lol.

the operation was 24aug 2pm. i went there with my mum ,didnt know wat to expect even after they gave me the booklet of some girl feelings and how they gonna do the lasik. my heart was beating badly. waiting at the waiting room there was 2 girls going in 1st .. it pratically took only 20-30mins and they are out with no more spects. When it was my turn, my mum went to the washroom. FANTASTIC. i was brought to the room to hear the stupid tapping sound of the machine, made me more panic.The nurse place some eyedrops so it wouldnt the pain when the doctor gonna cut my 1st layer of my eyes. it freaking bites with the eye drop but was good after a few minutes.

the doctor asked me to lay down on the operation bed, with the big funky machine to laser my eyes. basically they fix a metal shit to ur eye to avoid u from blinking. and u suppose to follow the red lights for like 8-10mins then u will go black out for 5secs. i wasnt worried anymore after my right eye was done... total it took my 30mins for both eyes.
it wasnt that bad as i thought it would be.. was really painless.. i could see immediately without my spects, and teh nurse already gave me orders to drop the eye drops every ten minutes. and some antibiotics.i was good to go .

i can see not as perfect eye sight but i was better than last time.. much better... was much much happier after 4 days .. i really can see clearly ... althought due night time wasnt that good as i wasnt used to it .. but i was kinda patients to wait for all the process. now i am very used to the face without my spects.

by now when i see my old photos i kinda look funny with spects..

but its all turn out good !~

=DD

(eye protection)

Spects? Or No?

20 - 24 July 2007 Melvin Stay

2007-07-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

VF 501 Jakarta Melvin Flight

1st Meal in Jakarta

Ready to go out?

Me and Melvin @ Mazze

Melvin , me , allen & taj

melvin and my gf

Ready to go out on the afternoon
allen,me,vonny,yan

gotta love this people & place here

Yan,Melvin,Me,allen!

when will the sky drop uh??

Shi sha @ kemang

The gang @ Kemang

lai leh... Gokart with me~

its me...

2007-07-16T02:19:00.000+08:00

Our emotional state of choice is Techno/EuroDance.
Our nourishment of choice is Love.
Our addiction of choice is technology.
Our religion of choice is music.
Our currency of choice is knowledge.
Our politics of choice is none.
Our society of choice is utopian though we know it will never be.
You may hate us.
You may dismiss us.
You may misunderstand us.
You may be unaware of our existence.
We can only hope you do not care to judge us, because we would never judge you. We are not criminals.
We are not disillusioned.
We are not drug addicts.
We are not naive children.
We are one massive, global, tribal village that transcends man-made law, physical geography, and time itself.
We dance fiercely with our brothers and sisters in celebration of our life
The music will never stop.
The heartbeat will never fade.
The party will never end.

2007-07-10T12:13:00.000+08:00

General
Network
UMTS / GSM 850 / 900 / 1800 / 1900

Size
Dimensions
4.2 x 2.0 x 0.54106.5 x 52 x 13.7 mm

Weight
4.1 oz / 115 g

Camera
2 MP, 1600x1200 pixels, video(QVGA), flash; secondary CIF video call camera
Video calling- Push to Talk- Java MIDP 2.0- MP3/M4A/AAC/eAAC+/WMA player- T9- Stereo FM radio- Voice command/dial- PIM including calendar, to-do list and printing- Document viewer- Photo/video editor- Integrated handsfree

ManU Cafe & X2 Part II

2007-06-14T12:48:00.000+08:00

Vonnz & Rv Bar top dance @X2 -.-

Yan, Rv, Taji & Vonny @ X2

the Gang :
Taj,hanz,John,Yan,Vonnz,Mel
@X2

me ,John
Vonny , Mel
@ X2

Hanz John & Mel ..
haha actually got my gf also but she got blocked by our hands

Brian,Vonny,Hanz @X2

3L Johnny Walker @X2

Me and my Gf ^^ @ ManU Cafe

We @ ManU Cafe Jakarta

John & me @ ManU cafe

Break Your Neck

huh?!

can look at the camera or not ... LoL

hanz John Mel

ManU Cafe & X2 Part I

2007-06-10T12:53:00.000+08:00

Smell the Martel Face

Martel

Cheers Taji Mel John

ManU Cafe Jakarta

Teq Shot

Good Citizen In Indonesia

3 Liter Martel @ X2

John , Brian , Hanz @X2

Hanz & Yan
Okay... his Drunk .. haha

Hanz Arvi Yan @ x2

Good New & Old

2007-06-04T17:33:00.000+08:00

Hanz Benji Afu Nurdin Mack Taj

after 1993, a visit from benji&mack .. i'm only a kid.. yet we meet again for party!
Nurdin(my eldest bro) Sec1 frens = Benji & Mack

times flies people change yet we are still the one that we used to know each other.. lifes goes on..

New aircon @ my Room

Old Aircon (goodbye after years of service)

this old cube game where video game overtake is still very interesting!

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Old Friends came or coming JKT
=came=
Hanwei 2006,2007(frequent flyer)
John & Mel 2007
Mickey 2006,2007(frequent flyer)
Zhengnan 2007
Benji & Mack 2007

=joining=
Allen Mids of July 2007
Melvin Mids of July 2007
John & Mel 7th June 2007

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i do remember i have more frens than this .. when are you joining me ? =P

Lina 's 23th Birthday

2007-06-04T16:29:00.000+08:00

Chocolate Cake Nice from Marco

Strawberry Cake from me and my gf

my gf and Lina

Marco and Lina

wondering y dun have my pic??

coz i'm the photographer~

=D

11 May 2007

2007-05-19T11:50:00.001+08:00

Night of Horror

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Tequila is a Killer + Safety Belt REALLY Saves Your Life
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Next Day Of Horror

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Worst & Luckiest Day. 11may2007
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Thanks for the people who are there for me that night :
Taj
Marco & Lina & Friends
My gf
Yan

Cousin Wedding @ Bandung

2007-05-19T11:29:00.000+08:00

Me & Taj @ Aston Hotel Bandung

Lobby Hotel Mall Aston

Getting Ready 4 Wedding Dinner

Taj Hanz

Bandung Trip

2007-03-20T15:34:00.000+08:00

18th Local DISTRO
where i buy alot of stuff... if got more money i will buy alot more...

being lame at pitstop in between expressway of Jakarta and Bandung

Things i and my bro bought
alot....

can you see the mountain?
bandung is damn cold!

taji and hanz early woke up

2 shirt i bought
RP150,000 = $25(sing)

Shoes i bought ? Nice?

Polo T i bought!
i'm Rockster Worldwide

T shirt i bought
Skaters

taj being lame @ A&W

quizz

2007-03-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

Which Vampire Clan Should You Belong To?
The Caitiff
The clansless. Caitiffs, are a new aspect to the vampire's society. They don't have anyone to teach them Disciplines, and no one to tell them of the Traditions. This doesn't mean they don't know any Disciplines, they could very well make their own, but usually they figure out a few small tricks to a few Disciplines. Some may even group together every once in a while, but not likely. They prefer their freedom, and the will to do what they will.
Caitiff are vampires with no clan to call their own. This usually happens because their sire despised them and left them to die. And the occasional victim of feeding gets lucky, and some how gets some of the vampires blood. They are also the rebellious ones, and some take leave of their sire and do as they will, most of the time moving to a new city or some where remote.
Most of the other clans look upon the Caitiff as trash, weak blooded, no knowledge of who and what they are and leave them to them selves as long as they don't cause any trouble, and most defiantly don't break the Masquerade.

Mout

Ironic, tremendous internal wealth, know how to rapidly connect with others, looks for paternal authority.
Colors: male: brown, female: red carmine
Compatible Signs: Amon-Ra, Thoth
Dates: Jan 22 - Jan 31, Sep 8 - Sep 22
Role: A creator goddess, she was the mother from which the cosmos emerged.
Appearance: A woman with the wings of a vulture, holding an ankh, wearing the united crown of Upper and Lower Egypt and also a dress of bright red/blue, with the feather of Maഠat her feet
Sacred Animal: vulture
What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign?
Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries

What Tarot Card are You?
You are The Magician
Skill, wisdom, adaptation. Craft, cunning, depending on dignity.
Eleoquent and charismatic both verbally and in writing, you are clever, witty, inventive and persuasive.
The Magician is the male power of creation, creation by willpower and desire. In that ancient sense, it is the ability to make things so just by speaking them aloud. Reflecting this is the fact that the Magician is represented by Mercury. He represents the gift of tongues, a smooth talker, a salesman. Also clever with the slight of hand and a medicine man - either a real doctor or someone trying to sell you snake oil.

Techno tribute

2007-03-12T14:35:00.000+08:00

techno kakis...

finally a good photo

club 3 anyone?
freaking chaos place

bomb

boatquay

raine & melvin

bomb

the birdie .. who can forget

ting , xiong me @ bomb

ting @ bomb

flying high... lol i still rmb the song

xiong& ting

xiong drinking @ bomb

woowee happy family

ting & xiong @ sparks platform

Rush Stamp

Dancefloor of Master Of sound

xiong,kevin,melvin,ting

@MOS

Close le .. go home...

xiong & me @ MOS

me and melvin @ mos

me and ting @ MOS

my days as a wanna be ah beng

haha

MOS @ Tanjong Pagar

Hans & Melvin Stamp

Sam @ Bomb

days where i see my training parthner dance like crazzzee..

Ravers united

Rush @ Mhd Sultan

Sparks was so crowded !

Platform is my shifu,Hanxiong

Sparks @ Orchard Towers

Zn @ Xkulsive boatquay

Zhengnan Stay Jakarta 28feb-6mar

2007-03-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

Photographer Zhengnan
enjoying to Smoke in Mall

Mel & Zn & Vonny
shoik?

Taj & Zn & Hanz
@ iPool

Nice House
Anyone wanna buy for me?

Me & Zn @Home

Zn & Hanz @ Gokart PIK

Zun Ka Hanz =DD @ iPool

Hanz&gf - Mel&Zn
@iPool

Prison Break - have a lil faith

Whahahahahaha dun copy!

Happenings during Jan & Feb

2007-03-02T13:21:00.000+08:00

Jakarta Flood

My Love Sandwich For My GF
Valentines Day

Nerd,Taj,Me,Mickey

PARTY ANIMALS @ JKT
Mickey holidays in JKT

Family Reunion CNY @ Makassar

Gambling Time =D

Me and Allen

Reunion @ SG

The Future Top Model

Dhea Basri
@ SG

My 1st Carls Jr.

Feelings of the heart

2007-01-07T06:15:00.000+08:00

sad?
y do people get so sad... y do people seems so unreasonable...
i still wonder.. and wan to find the answer to make things right...

i been tru some shittyy life... maybe there are people who are worst than me.. but for my current situation i dun feel any comparision is needed...

maybe to YOU
i havent did my best...
i havent show u any improvement...

maybe to ME
i been trying to avoid all ur problems...
life is cruel ..
i gave u advise to let u do it .. not listen to it and do anyway...
i have more reason as i dun wan u to get hurt by this stupid world

am i being oevr protective?
am i being selfish ?
should i let you go to make you learn ?
how i wish i wouldnt coz i dun wan to miss you anymore...

KILLER DREAMS
am i thinking too much ?
am i worrying too much ?
am i paraniod?

bad dreams which cant let me go back to sleep...
worrying so much
is this fair to me ?
why are u doing this ?
am i doing something wrong...to feel this way...

FAIR/UNFAIR
life is so unfair...
dun hope so much ..
fight for what is right for u ...
wether u apperciate me or not .. i have not much to say
all i know i gave u more than anyone else already...
i am tired...
i wish sometimes u could give me back what i had gave u these times..

its time i RECIEVE,
its time for you to GIVE.

ANTI SOCIAL
i am not.
i just feel sometimes u cant help,
i want my space.
i wan to be strong,
i dun wan u to worry.
YOU CANT HELP ME
ONLY myself to overcome my fears...

LOVE
i wish i am right... this time...

John Arrival & Makassar Stay

2007-01-01T14:18:00.000+08:00

my gd drinking friend john came indo recently for 7 days then i went my hometown for a few days till 27th.

me and john and my bro drunk 35 bottles of beer, 2 chivas, half jw half vodkha for 7 days...
lol abit hardcore .. but it suddenly rush my blood with the amount of alcohol...
it feels good to have the old memories rush back to my brain...

after tipsy of 7 days ...
i went sober to makassar to see my family...
had family photo since 2-3 years back...
its a big family man..

=D
3 pack of red per day.. cheap yet hardcore

me and john and my bro at a nice jakarta small pub hang out...

stock up booze

DFS Vodkha

PARTY TIME

me and my 2 beautiful princess of the family

me and my grandma

Gadget Freaks

2006-11-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

MYGiG CAR entertainment without CD MP3players or tapes. Let PLay with Harddisk.

Stylo man i wanna get one...

Laser Pointers to light up ur ciggs?

admit it

2006-11-28T02:10:00.000+08:00

what do u love and dare to admit it?

i love....
techno(y do pple say we are ahbeng/ahlians?)
my bro(y do u wanna say i'm gay?)
my hairstyles(y do u think i got nothing else to do?)
my gf(y do u think i am jus plaing around?)
my friends(y do think i dun have better frens?)
being alone in the need of time(y do pple keep wan to accompany me,just to think it will help me?)

what do u hate and would like to speak out ?

i hate....
basically everything that i dun wan to happen to me.
irritations.
losing something beyond my control.
and most of all
people who thinks they know me so well they can cook me up for dinner.
*beep* wrong answer

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Note* doing this for the fun of my spare time.
Please do not try this anywhere else. or i will call the police and catch u.. hehe..

i miss it....

2006-11-27T15:35:00.000+08:00

techno....
MOMO with hanwei
MOS NIGHT ? ring any bell?
MAHJONG =(
MODENA
Macdonal(Chicken Macnugets)+ ICEMilo
Burger King + Ice Milo

hmmm

2006-11-27T15:27:00.000+08:00

have u ever felt u losing someone close to u ?
and u cant do nothing about it ??

i'm having a bad semester... with 3 headache subjects...
got barred two subjects.. appealing for one and the otehr one gonna let it be..

haiz.. studies getting harder and harder..
vonny is gonna find a course for pharmacy, so most prob she need to change a school.

although i am in indo for 1 year 3 months++ seems to people that i already adapted the life here .. yes i do but somethings nv changed since then i havent got a real buddy here... so when i got trouble i will just pop up my internet and chat with my friends in sg ..

i can say i have some problem now that no one can help me with ... i'm kinda LOST now... bad habbits of mine are popping out again... Drinking was just the solution of the things i cant settle.. althought i'nm just drinking beer but vonny said i been getting back to where i used to be again .. in time i will have to overcome my alcohol problems..

for me, now no one can console or change the situation for me... just let it be.. i just still miss the times i had in sg .. with frens and without frens.. its just different.. but i know i will overcome it sometimes later...

hope my frens dun worry abt me lah... i will be fine .. some of u all know i can do it ... so let it be... ^^

Back

2006-11-12T16:39:00.000+08:00

lol havent been updating since my last arrival in indo...

been missing ...
nothing much .. same old things ..
study .. spending time with my girl friend..

and recently samuel been mixing techno song again...
so i decided to start mixing again...
althought i havent been mxing since my techno days,
its a new start old passion new mixing..

sam said my best are too fast .. but welcome to my world now
i had remixed a song today.. sam got a copy of it already . so peeps i would wan to share it with u and give me comments about it okay.

msg me in msn i will send u my copy or if u prefer sam's work i will send u his work too.Thanks.

Heard from wallace and edmund there is a babe(nicole) from Malaysia doing very great with the shuffle . it getting very fashionable in Malaysia. Its called the RnB shuffle..
they shuffle tru the rythms of rNb..
so when is sg booast this great shuffle thingy ??

i will pause with the shuffle things and get into tribal and house music for the moment ^^

=)

15 - 24 Singapore Stay Part 1

2006-09-26T09:28:00.000+08:00

Hello people... ^^

been one hectic singapore stay ever !!

15th reached singapore...
went to sempang bedok for magee mee goreng with my gf,yiting,joseph,moon&zn.
continued to play mahjong later at the night.

16th went to blood check
took from both hands Ouch*
then followed up with
Last Techno Gathering?

(Top)Left to Right : Kevin,Melvin,Sam
(Low)Left to Right : Raine,Yiting,Hanxiong,Hanz,Vonny

my techno past :
i started went very frequently to learn dancing @ Bomb boatquay with Sam.
i got very wasted with melvin and sam @ Xkulsive boatquay.
i learn "smoke machine step" from Alex Gay and get to know hanxiong.
i got alot of exp going and hanging out with hanxiong and yiting.Happy duckie Family?
i knew kevin tru melvin and ravers was form @ mos tanjong pagar.
soon to say we were just one group of crazy techno lover...
i see the end of era to techno in the singapore scene...

20th went to Momo and Cube.

met up with an old friend hanwei. acc with my gf and zn.
i went in Momo with an expired member. haha
i went in Cube Under Nizam name.
said hello with the clubs and the people who used to stay in J lounge JKT.

my past rnb :
Chinablack(Wed),Dbl O(Thur),Zouk Phuture(Fri),Momo(Sat).
i used to club this way last time... haha..
i have no time for this kinda lifestyle anymore...

21st - 23rd Chalet Birthday 21st
People who came : 30
Cake : 2 (after 12am,before 12am)
Broadrick sec Friends : Zn,wenjie,minghui,jake,jonah,zonggen,eric,melvin,qude,joseph(ac/bro).
Primary Sch Friends : Junping(ac/gf),peizhi,zihao,david.
Good Friends : hanxiong,yiting,andy(ac/gf),alex,moon(ac/bf),lele,edmund,paul,wallace(ac/gf),Yongjian,Yan.

Continuing Part 2 Next Entry.

1st angry blog i will write..

2006-09-05T02:32:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda pissed of by someone on my msn list ..

1st this guy wrote "plis do not put the turtle icon as i might be a virus"

eventually i msg him and told him please change his nick... just simple...
we are just people who have our own ways to show we care...
the turtle icon is a reptile..
as a news break out : Steve Irwin Passed away the Famous Crocodile Hunter passed away today.

eventually this guy changed his msn nick to " _|_ want to show care to a dead peson USE HEART why msn nick ? whats the link ? "

from heart i will very pissed off .. he was the one who act smart thought it was a virus ..? hey i am a computer geek and i know a different btw a icon and a virus.. dun act smart lah ..

so what if there is no link ? is it our choice ? to put it or not ?
why are u so busybody of others ?
we have our own way to express it ...

we cant do anything but to expressed it tru msn .. and i would wanna do a blog about it also... coz i had watch most of the Croc Hunter shows on Cable TV.
he is really good in entertainment and educating people about his passion and the environment...

PS : to this junk trash talker .. i wish u mind your own business if u had read the news frequently and stop bothering of what others wanna dow iwth their msn...
if i was there i would had do the same to u .. _|_ mind your own business... for myself i do not care wether u care about our computers getting virus or not.

PS : Steve Irwin Rest in peace May god bless you in heaven...
you have done good to this spining earth...

MIA and back again ^^

2006-08-25T05:35:00.000+08:00

i have been mia since a long time...
never really blog so much...

its been days since allen ..
a old sec sch fren who turn out to be a good fren.
he is now in SHANGHAI.

now planning for the evil plans of coming back to sg
one LAST TIME to celebrate my birthday in sg .. coz its special...

its my 21st Birthday !!!
got the approval from my parents already .. but i wouldnt be staying longer than 9 days... i found out since the couples of trips of going back sg .. my time in sg is getting shorter and shorter...

make this the last birthday there ba..

chat with a couple of frens telling them i am going back...
but somehow people are busy with school ? Exams ? Army ?
the usual things...
wish things would turn out fine ye...

WISHES IN SINGAPORE :
FOOD ? nasi pataya@siglap... porkchop rice @ beachRd... PRATA and roti john and magee mee goreng @ sempang bedok... MILO PENG !!!... MOS BURGER... BIG BREAKFAST MAC... mushroom swis BK.... TEH TARIK GAJA.... Charsiew RICE @ katong... fark man so many... got time to eat or not ?!?

RAVERS - kev,mel,sam? one last time till i put the past away for good .. let me groove as the wannabe ah beng one last time ba....

SAR21 TeamB v2.0 - zn,val? one last time getting drunk at a club ? let me drink like a crazy carmel and enjoying the best music of the time i used to liked soo much...

happy family(duckies family) - ET,xiong? lol... this one i have no idea if we could have the duckie family once again... maybe next life ? lolx.. =D

OMFG Family - m00ne,jo,liang,sher,shiya...etc? hope just to see them again... simple ?

i think i have too many wishes already....
actually just wanna have to spent my 21st with the friends who went tru my life during my 15++ years in sg...
althought we cant change back to the time we used to enjoy... we people are always hoping to turn back time once more.... humans are f**king greedy!

DETAILS:
Arrival of the EVIL : 16th September 2006
Chalet of EVIL : 21th to 23rd September 2006
Departure of EVIL : 24th September 2006

JOKE I FOUND ON THE NET that made me closer to SINGAPORE
the place i grew up in...

Singapore Brainless Kid

During a rehearsal for Channel-5 game show "Singapore Brainest Kid", a contestant was asked to

name the opposite gender of animals.

The host, Cheryl Fox asked " OK, tell me what's the opposite of cow ?"

The contestant answered, "Bull."

Satisfied with the answer, Sheryl asked" What's the opposite of cock ?"

There was a moment of silence. It seemed like the contestant did not know the answer.

Cheryl trying to calm him, "Its OK, just tell me what you think it is."

The young boy paused for a moment, scratched his head, moved closer to the microphone & finally

answered loudly, "Chee Bye!"

LOL *CHEERS* i am coming back !!!

DRUGS ALCOHOL SMOKING

2006-08-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

Whats going on in Jakarta ?!
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These drugs are readily available in all major urban areas, including schools, karaoke lounges, bars, cafes, discotheques, nightclubs, and they even foun their way into remote villages. Therefore, it is not surprising that drug users continue to increase from year to year.

On April 8, 2005, the Police found an ecstasy factory having a production capacity of 504,00 pills daily in Bogor (West Java) ; on November 11, 2005, an ecstasy and shabu-shabu factory with capacity of producing 100 kg per week in Cemplang Cekande (Banten); on November 23, 2005, esctasy factories with production capacity of 8,000 pills per hour in Banyuwangi and Malang (East Java) on November 23, 2005, which were owned by Indonesian, Singapore, Hong Kong and Malaysian citizens.

The Indonesina police, and the people in general, should rejoice and be proud of last year's discovery of shabu-shabu and ecstasy factories which ranked as the world's third biggest.

The big busts are hopefully a sign of the beginning of the prevalence of clean governance in Indonesia and a sign of the governments strong commitment to save the country's younger generation.

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Smoking Banned in Public Places in Jakarta
The Weekend Australian reports (4 February 2005) that legislators in the Indonesian capital have passed a law banning smoking in public places as part of efforts to combat pollution in one of the world's most polluted cities.

According to the new law, a person caught smoking in public places such as restaurants, parks and public transport will be fined 50 million rupiah ($7000) or jailed for six months.

Some Jakartans expressed doubts the ban would be enforced strictly, arguing that other laws aimed at making the capital more orderly had been ignored.

"People refuse to use pedestrian bridges to cross even though there are officers around. Do you expect the same officers to stop people from smoking?" one resident wrote to the Detikcom news website.

Smoking comes close to being a national pastime in Indonesia.

Some 70 per cent of the country's 213 million people smoke, its cigarette firms are stock market leaders and 57,000 deaths a year are blamed on tobacco.

In another move to curb pollution in Jakarta, city councillors this week agreed to set limits on vehicle emissions but dropped plans to ban ageing cars and buses from roads despite pressure from officials and environmentalists.

Aging buses, packed so tightly that passengers are forced to hang from the doors, are one of the more unattractive features of city life.

Unlike most other major Asian cities, Jakarta has no subway or light railway.

The Asian Development Bank last year said hazardous urban pollution levels in Indonesia costs the country 400 million dollars a year.

It said the figure could increase tenfold by 2010 without environmental improvements.

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Designer drug cocktails on the menu
The Herald Sun reports (21 March 2005) that young Victorians are increasingly popping, injecting and smoking a dangerous cocktail mix of drugs. Speed, ice, cannabis, ecstasy, GHB, ketamine, cocaine, heroin and LSD are all on the menu for young people in a world of ever-increasing choice. And the list of ecstasy pills making their way on to the market is rising all the time. Blue DVDs, red and green Mitsubishis, orange butterflies, red/pink Russians and white VWs are just a handful of the designer drugs available in Melbourne recently.

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what do u think ?
how do i think ?
why do i care i just feel like flying ...

Fun ?

2006-07-20T13:47:00.000+08:00

i been to indo theme park "Dufan"

it was great .. took all the rides which i cant take when i was small...

enjoy ^^

Suki and my bro

my bro , me and allen

monkey !!

this is dangerous !

giggolo on the lose !!!

gigolo is caught for adultery

Robot that serve us at Meotor attack ride

the gang that was having their time of their life at DUFAN
laughing .. getting wet... screaming out their laughs and being like a kid once again

Time ?

2006-07-20T13:35:00.000+08:00

so how i feel so far away from so many close friends already....

i cant count how many months i have been away from singapore.
am i being forgetten ?
so if it was a yes what would i do ?

i realise i been chatting with most the pple in msn but i am stuck of what am i gonna ask about them ...
"hi, how r u"
"when u coming back?"
"still clubbing?"
"hows sg or indo?"

this questions and answer during msn chat
is there any real conversation like it used to be ?

yes i can say i still have people who still can click even if we been not spending time together...

haiz .. are we lost ?

2006-07-16T03:52:00.000+08:00

"I Write Sins Not Tragedies"

Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

A Relieve Blogger!

2006-07-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

Moon will be the relieve blogger again for the disappearance of doko since.. erm?
*Scratches head*
I dunno.

Well, i suppose everyone is sian sian cuz world cup has ended. Haha~ and some are sian sian cuz they lose money, or their favourite teams lost, or there's nothing to watch during midnight anymore or even to say some international soccer players will not be playing anymore 4 yrs later in the next season...

Players like Roberto Carlos and Zidane?

Anyways, I blogged about world cup cuz doko didn't blogged about it. Talking bout him, I bet he's still slacking, still enjoying..still spending loads of time with allen and vonz.. still eating suppers past midnight.. still loving techno..

Well, this is the 2nd time this kuku disappear liao.. I guess he's busy playing the crims lah.. Never minds.. i suggest that he recruit a few more relieve bloggers to blog for him.. ppl who always haf interesting stuffs to say like Eat-Ting.. or Zn? And flood this blog fully of posts!!

Instead of me visiting this site again and again reading the same post lor.

Right right right?

If you agree to have more relieve bloggers, SMS "Yes" to 99911 Or "No" to 99955.
Each sms costs 20 cents and if you're below 18 yrs of age, pls have parental consent.
Rules and regulations apply.
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2006-07-02T12:52:00.000+08:00

i finally found a new game into my life ....

used to i was still hanging along to gunbound..
but i still do ...

but now me and my frens are playing thecrims
its just a website game with no graphic movement like gb
but it is very interesting though...

Friends/people who likes gangster/mafia shows
or if u enjoyed God father the Ps2 game,
its similiar u would like to try this

Ps: if anyone play le.. add me okay ;p hanz07
=D *cheers*

Slack....

2006-06-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

what i been doing in indo ??

slacking... i am so lazy for anything
for the moment of time...
LAZY MUST SLACK...

EVERYDAY SLACK....

slack @ starbucks

taji and allen

slack?

Me and Her

world cup siao...
santa.. horse.. me... vonny... watch soccer...

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Tour to Philips

this was actually a trip to do my homework about database
unfortunately...
the IT students found it was a JUNKy TOUR
its doesnt help any of the question that our teacher gave us ...

WTF
everyone just daze and look around the place for 3 hours ?
zZz i was sleeping and playing snake on my phone...

what does IT student and teachers do ?

watch TV LAH

ZZz....

Vonny ^^

2006-06-18T15:44:00.000+08:00

shhhhhh! this is my lovely girlfren, vonny.

she loves to make funny faces which always make me smile

she is trying to dance like the way i dance..
but some how she say i look like a gay when i dance techno.. -_^

she love kids esp. those cute cute chubby ones..
she is trying to kiss my nephew derron but i think he is busy for other things.. hehe

OMFG .. what is she doing now ?!
haha nice pose *shake head*

this is two person who combined power to make laugh all night long
my gf(vonz) and my bf(best fren,allen)
(pics are kept private as they do funny faces, which is not allowed to be post)

most important of all

SHE LOVES ME

(huggies)

AND

(muachhz)

I LOVE HER

New Beginning of an Old Fren

2006-06-12T03:14:00.001+08:00

New beginning of an old fren, Allen.

got to know this old fren from secondary school broadrick. Class 2/4

i was kinda a indo boy who hang outs with singaporean chinese.
just like my bro,taji. indo boy hang out with singaporean malayu.

i wasnt a talkative guy in brd last time.. b4 sec3.
i was a nerd and innocent boy in class who did well in class for most of the subjects.
haha

we had chat abit last time but he had a very impression to me as
i had heard from much about him in school.
he told me once "got trouble find him"
OMFG i so nerd got what trouble.. yes i do get pick on in school
but i had never asked him for any helps...

recently i meet him tru frenster and asked him wether he had remembered me or not
fortunately, he did.
in need of frens or maybe i should say in need of people who been tru life in sg to share a common interest and thought with me.

soon we click so fast i could remember when it was .. 1 day ? 2 days max?
he had shown me the life of indonesian .. good and bad ..
i had learnt alot of new things from him.

sadly to say he is going to immigrate to China Shanghai with his family soon
Early August 2006
we spent practically everyday together (yes this sound gay to u all)
but its not to me.

getting so much knowlegde and fun
soon it will be far away from me again
just like when i left sg airport to say good bye to u all ...

Me and Allen

2006-06-12T03:14:00.000+08:00

New life Old Post

i was wondering if i could have my 21st birthday in singapore?

i have plans for that but i need to have permission from my parents
havent asked yet
but i have a rough idea what should i do while i go sg

4 days would be enough for all my long time craving.
2 day shopping and getting around for the food and shopping i need..
night comes guess what ? Clubbing at 2 places only - techno ? and Club Momo.

2 days of chalet
meeting so so many frens that i would invite
and i guess my gf if she is following,
she will be busy knowing all of u guys and girls

it wouldnt be fair for me to keep pestering my friends to come indo find me
why not i come back on my 21st birthday and meet u all once for so so long time...

will this be a dream come true or just a part of my imagination?

2006-06-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

nothing last forever except for memories
(Part I)

i was thinking so much about the past
was chatting with a long lost fren which i met in indonesia, allan.
he was a classmate when i was in sec2 in broadrick.

had so much of memories back then.
he was the well respected indonesian in sg
while i was just a nerd in school.

now he is so much humble yet
still i had this certain of respect i had for him since last time.
as he seen me, he said i turn from nerd to "ah beng"
haha what was i expecting..

i still remember how me and melvin turn into good frens to buddy then god brothers
ONLY ONE NASI BRAYANI
haha.. due to a certain girl who ask him to came over to "beat me up"

sharing girls problems with Zhengnan and bernard
having long nights chat with them turns us to gd frens to best frens
we had our dream b4 of going out together on triple date.
catching movie and walking in shopping mall,
3 best frens with their girl of their dream.
hurting break ups made us stronger together.

crapping with Jonah and Zonggen
form a bond in the class
people stating us as RTD
the 3 lamers of diff character.
we were out to make people angry for our pleasure.
fun times gone so yes we arent so childish anymore in our separate lifes..

Joining the ah beng forces
can i say i was a wannabe ah beng ?
haha..
techno places chainting stupid peoms even i am not in a gang
those memories of laughing people who cant dance
and shaking our head at stupid ah beng fighting
these times i had Happy family of hanxiong and yi ting
they made me dance until i boose my confidence on the dance floor.
ravers - sam melvin kevin and me
maybe the last batch of ravers on the dancefloor in sg now
yet i am so rusted i cant dance like i used to be anymore.

Changing Sides techno to r&b
whole new friends and moves to break.
Pam,Jolene,Patrick,Willy,Tony,Joseph,Joshua,Kelvin...etc...
As all of them are so much older than me
they had tought me how to tackle the girls of sg in r&b clubs
so mature so fun
meet a great fren , hanwei
bartender due chinablack then moved to momo as GM
he was my fav waiter also fren in the late night district
i had nv had so much frens in a club b4
that changed my life to be more friendly and have more older and mature frens
with diff thinkings and advise.
due of age , they had moved on and lesser are clubbing now..

Games to Good frens ?
how much would had this experience?
how many good frens u would have tru playing gunbound ?
moon,joseph,hanxiong,yi ting,andy etc...
send me farewell and gave me back the memories i had during the game
and our session of gathering and supper session.

Changing Paths - Singapore to Jakarta
(will continue at Part II)

sad good memories once more...
i had miss all of them so much...
yet this is my life...

do you have as much as memories that your small brain can keep in?

when will answers reveal ?

2006-05-30T09:20:00.000+08:00

i wonder why i have so many unanswer questions in my head.

am i worry too much
or am i caring for u too much..

why do i ask u and u kept quiet ?
why do u seem so mysterious ?

are we getting bored with each other
or are we drifting apart ?

are u stubborn or
am i wanting to know too much ?

i would had changed so much for u if u had choose the right path
u had so much of my view of world if u had agreed with me

are u my cinderella ?
am i just a burden to u ?

nothing perfect
i had never know loving someone
would make myself feel

pain , anger , sorrow

where is the love and happiness and laughter we used to shared and felt ?
its that just a dream or just a period ?

we been tru so much yet we arent bond to be stronger but
weaker...

its this all worth all my pain and my tears?
or would u say issit worth ur time and effort?

i would wanna just escape to my paradise without u
to see the life i used to chose and the life i chose with u ..

"Never understand how u felt?"
"had u understand how i felt also?"

questions to u and me
i i i i i i i i i........
*speechless*

!~

2006-05-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

i have no liecence

i cant drive

my car is in a mess

my car is almost dead

my car going to hospital soon

sobsss

New Phone Nokia 6280

2006-04-30T08:00:00.000+08:00

weee hee

i got a new phone
Nokia 6280

Slide phone
small and nice
with 2 mega pixel camera behind the phone.
vga cam infront for video call

effects from the phone camera itself

My Car hehe

My old phone Nokia 6680

TIESTO

2006-04-24T12:20:00.000+08:00

DJ TIESTO

In Search Of Sunrise 5 Asia TOUR

8pm where everyone is driving down to Ancol
so many cars
Okky,hisfren,me,my bro was excited to see the concert

Finally we reach the gates !
a few more kilometers till we reach the que
the que was like about 2 km long

Finally we get into the concert field and its about 10.45pm
1st DJ was local - DJ wingky
2nd DJ local - DJ DADI
both played very nice progressive music
very nice lights and speakers

crowd was pouring in and the drinking starts
i drunk 1 bottle of water and 3 vokha redbull

1am - Arrival of Dj TIESTO
1st song Lethal Industry which made the crowd CRAZY
he came in with FIREWORKS
CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY

3 hours of tiesto ..
shag out and ended with fireworks
we drag our body out for like 45mins walk till macD.
ate and recharge till we walk back to our cars

20.000++ People
Nice music
Nice Lights
RAVE!!!

DJ TIESTO 5 THUMBS UP

2006-04-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

what will we do with music ?
what will we do without dancers?

life is a bORE

chill and enjoy the following clips

Robotic dancers
when will i learn these moves?!

2006-04-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

Farewell Hanwei The Great

last night we went to bliss
last night clubbing for a bro of mine who had stayed in jkt for 1 month

his back to his beautiful country
Singapore

his back on Club MoMo.
his step off J Lounge

we will meet again one day soon !
take care bro
we shall meet again one day either in MoMo or j Lounge.!

Brothers...

The Gang
hanwei,me,my gf, my bro!

2006-04-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

Whats going on ?

i been missing in action for quite some time coz of
EXAMS EXAMS
4 hrs of sleep per night for 4 days.
cable connection was cutted due to late payment also hehe..

The papers are getting easier by the day , last paper was TODAY . ENGLISH

Tomorrow Hanwei would be going back to Singapore, and back to MoMo.
damn i will miss him hanging out with me and my bro during his stay here.

Soon, Edmund and wallace is coming to JKt again which is Monday.

22 April 2006
will be the day of raving to TRANCE
DJ TIESTO NUMBER 1 DJ in the WORLD
IN JKT
me,my bro, some of my good frens in school is going to rave till drop!

how soon more till i see u guys?
yiting?xiong?melvin?valent?zhengnan?sam?moon? so so many?
i miss the so eng eng of me in sg
do nothing but club club and club
lol

no one told me growing up was so hard
the hard roads still goes on and i am still going against it

its holidays
time to chill and stop going against the hard roads for a while

TIME TO PLAY !
BUT
WHEN IS THE TIME I PLAY WITH MY SINGAPORE FRIENDS?

^^

Where has he gone to?

2006-04-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

Okays.. where has doko gone to? lol.. It's been 7 yrs and 50 days. =/

2006-03-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

Go Kart Entry ! Ready to RACE?!

Ready to Race

Me getting Ready =D

My Bro, Taji

me and hanwei getting ready for gokart

This is my hand on the gear of my car =) , not go-kart !

2006-03-29T13:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday 28 Mrach

i went j lounge with my bro
Its Rnb night on Tuesday ?!

wrong day but very good music from DJ Tai
his back in jkt and gonna stay here for months till he get back to momo again

as usual,
me, taj and hanwei starting playing 5-10
drink Chivas and alot of Beer
my bro was very high
see him puke the 2nd or 3rd time?

i was being so stonned as i was very tired of the previous day.
but the music and alcohol came into my system fast enough
the music DJ Tai played made me miss SINGAPORE AGAIN
ARGH...
=(

only me and my bro was some pple was dancing
for me i was so on the edge
to want to dance...
but the people who used to dance with me
WASNT there...

Time to stop missing about SINGAPORE
and STOP drink ALCOHOL

STUDY TIME EXAMS COMING WITHIN 2 weeks!
guys and girls wish me good luck that i can pass all !

i miss all of u all !!

2006-03-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

BLOG

finally i can blog .. hehe
dunno what to write but let u all see something what me and my bro
usually do in JKT

we do spent alot of time together
1st - play pool
2nd - sisha/slack
3rd - clubbing
4th - play games/arcade
many too list ...

My bro slack @ Coffebean

Doesnt this place remind u of holland V?

Sisha

Hehe

Smoke machine

Mario Brothers

2006-03-05T12:02:00.000+08:00

* J lounge *

weeeeeeeee.....
i am so so so happy.
i found the momo in indo, actually its is the branch of momo.
its called J lounge which is so ALIKE of momo
the design, the interior, the MUSIC!

i went last night with my brother
to visit hanwei and the guys from sg
who now work here at jakarta

it feel so good to see some familiar faces
the music really turn me on!

but somehow i was so missing sg
i miss the way valentino was with me at momo
his peguin dances and the way he will tell me "best music lai liao!"

the music make me think of Chinablack and Momo
make me think of the friends and the times i spent in these 2 places
memories keep pouring back
i was too overwhelm about the place i could just sit and think back!

i had found the place i used to love and loved so much
thank you god!!!

Momo?Nope its J lounge!

=D~~~~~

2006-02-12T09:23:00.000+08:00

6th till 12th feb

since 6th,
the arrival of Edmund, Paul and wallace from Sg

we did tons of stuff..
like Go-kart, Spa and clubbing in short time of 3 days.

1st day we went for spa,
then ate kambing... hehe

2nd day i didnt went out with them as i went to school.

3rd day as their last day ,
we went to bliss(club)
tons of girls were with us and one of my good buddy in indo.

somehow they left jkt soon.
and during that period of time,
i broke up with my girl friend

yes i miss her now but
i see no future for me and her
we keep on fighting
keep on getting back together.

somehow our relationship make me think of a song

haiz....

me and paul

the food - all kambing

paul and edmund

Regisiter For Terrorist

Get Ready. Go Go Go..

Terrorist Driver

Terrorist Win!

chinese new year

2006-01-31T15:54:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year to all

Red red for chinese new year.. me and my bro

this year chinese new year as usual spend time with my family
in makassar for 3 days
just came back to jakarta..
school starts tomorrow =/

in makassar lost half of my angbao by gambling..
lol...
its doesnt matter as i only gamble with my family and relatives.

coming 6th Edmund paul and wallace coming to jkt ..
its good to see some familiar faces coming to indonesia
but not as good as when its all your bro frens..

hmmm.. when will my frens come over indo huh?!?!?!

My new year shirt.. hmm i still look to handsome hehe =p

Ari and me

Gamble Table

2006-01-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

i'm not fine

so now i feel it..
she dun care...

so maybe i shouldnt care so much too..
maybe i am tired of going her way...

i'm not fine with my results...
i'm not fine with her..
i'm not fine with myself..

i'm not fine feeling not fine
somehow typing so much "fine"
reminds me of the 'fine' city sg
its makes me even not fine

the mosquito are biting me now
my skin not feeling fine

wish i wll feel more fine next day

school results

2006-01-19T17:34:00.000+08:00

School Results

due to the false alarm by the school,
today i recieved a letter from school.

its the term result...
i know i failed a subject coz even my head of department give me the face that i fail..

now she gonna get it ..
coz the results are

English - Credit
Programming - Pass
Web Design - Pass
Comp IT - Pass

so what did i fail ?!
now its my time to fark her upside down

i was so happy when i saw the result
actually i never fail anything

no matter what i wouldnt stop learning for more..
my power for study is still going strong
happy means = Celebration
happy means = i no need to stay back to complete one subject
happy means = to work harder for better marks

i am happy ^^

weeeeeeeee***