i been here in jkt for 4 years. i had so much memories...
with pple people who is here and who is not...
pple who had i lost and who are still here...
but i after i lost so much... even just two i had no one to talk to anymore...
even for the people who are there for me no offenses..
i miss the people who are gone especially my eldest brother who is in heaven
i am not tearing coz i know he is in the better place... but some how i miss how he used to tell us how much he worked hard just for us to enjoy as much as much. maybe i didnt understand that as much as taj but i know it much as much as taj hurt right beneath his heart...
no tears cant bring back the dead but i know i would bring back all the smile that i can to make my family and love ones to be happy>
im in jkt lonely and sad and im moving on to my chapter of life that maybe no one would understand why i do it.
i do it for my faily and the peopl who had loved me.
it might sound selfish for any girlfriend that that i have now
but i wish over matter of year i been tryong so hard to move on to my parents would be.
i wanna move on.. to be a better me.. future hold so much promises..
i wish my parthner would hold with me and go on life as it goes for the BETTER or WORST coz i really NEED that support. and coz i love u that much to tell u for better or worst IF its better i would let u go.. i am not a selfish person. and maybe one day i would realise that being a selfish person not gonna do u good
someone or something prove me wrong> i do consider every aspect of LIFE.
but aint so easy.
even if i dont believe in god
god please bless me
i love u row, taj, my mum and whoever once treated me better...
give me the strength i need to get tru...
hanzTranceD.Out.On.4:25 AM
