yep tears

then a laugh.

life's good with your around me.

I am nothing special of this I am sure.

I am just a common man with common thoughts.

Everyone told me that love hurts, but that isn't true.
As
Loneliness hurts.
Rejection hurts.
Losing someone hurts.
Envy hurts.

but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.


There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten.

But I've been loving with all my heart and soul, and to me, that has always been enough.

<3

i seriously dunno how to start this entry.

recently i had lost a dear brother of mine whose only 39.
his always taking care of his health, his wife and kids.
he love them so dearly.
working so hard for my dad.
yet god still took him away so early in his life....

i had so much great time with him although we are 14 years gap difference.
i realize we always want a 2nd chance in everything we did wrong in life yet in a right position we always want 2nd chance to make in even better than we had in the 1st time.

its been very hard for everyone in the family to accept his not here anymore.
for me and my family, we wish for this 2nd chance we would be able to see him again, to treat him differently, to feel how he felt and to enjoy more enjoyable times with him.

PS: bro i missed you so much. love you always.

i, myself had alot of 2nd chances in life.
i had chance to study uni again in jkt after i didn't got a student pass in Singapore.
maybe its not the 2nd chance i wanted but its a 2nd chance to pro long my studies.
7 years back i had let a girl walk out my life before.
but god let me had a 2nd chance to meet her and fall for her once again.
this time i would treasure everything that she is going to give me and love her and accept for who she is.

maybe since i realize that sometimes not everything has a 2nd chance,
i would see this world much clearer of my mistakes and really treasure all the 2nd
chances that is given to me.



She was always being mistreated.
She was always misunderstood.
She was always walking around with a smile that's not i used to see truly.
She was always being the good partner who didn't get what she wanted.

For all that she is being,
i will protect her from harm ways
and love her with all my heart.

coz i know i wouldn't let my 2nd chance to go to waste again.

PS:i love you rowena, put that smile on your face always coz i will always be there for you.